Show your work

 I just came across this idea of showing your work as the the thing to break through obstacles. Sharing the struggles and giving the behind the scenes truth of the process. In that vain I begin to offer, with very little editing. So forgive my dyslexic writing. 
I feel it is impossible to set dates for offerings. I do not feel safe in creating anything that will likely be torn down, cancelled, dumped. Covid is a great ruiner of creative inspiration.
I fondly remember the days when I would set dates for offerings willynilly, No Biggy.
Now, an in person class feels rude. Yet an online one feels like torture.
I did offer online, I did try. Technology failed me. I have a bad attitude.
Yet it is very clear that if I do not try to enjoy online I will just not be teaching. That is even worse. I love teaching and sharing what I do. 
Teaching online is so different than in person classes and workshops. There is a learning curve on how to really engage with your students through the screen that I haven't learned. I find zoom very overwhelming to my nervous system and tracking students in different locations makes me twitchy. And yet...I miss the connections between people, the profound transformation that can take place. 
I hope to read this someday and remember how I found my way through this. I believe I will.